Sometimes, I really hate myself for thinking this way. 
I'm sick and tired of having these kind of thoughts. 
I know I'm just making myself miserable. 
But I just can't help it .
The moment my mind wanders off, these thoughts just come gushing into my mind. 
I really hate these thoughts. 
I know they are just dreams that will never come true. 
But I really can't help it. 


It hurts to have these thoughts. 
It hurts so bad. 
I just want all the pain to go away ...