Ehhhhhh... 2 posts in one day?!
Yeah. I just got alot on my mind that I want to get rid of.
It might very well offend people, but whatever. I just want to get it off my chest.
First.
There are some people who are FREE to go wherever they want, whenever they want.
Want to go out, then drag people along mah.
How?
Find me lor.
But then, when I say I can't, they start whining and asking me why.
Seriously larh. No one to go out with you then STAY THE FUCK AT HOME. NOT EVERYONE IS AS FREE AS YOU.
Can't you just stay home and help around the house?
OH WAIT. YOU ALL ARE TOO FUCKING PAMPERED TO EVEN LIFT A FINGER AND HELP OUT.
Sorry to disappoint you, but I've been doing the housework every weekend and cooking every other day SINCE I WAS IN PRIMARY SCHOOL.
LIKE HELL YOU'LL UNDERSTAND.
Second.
When I finally can go out, of course must drag those free kias out luhh.
Then what happens?
They spend money like it grows on trees and they live in the Botanic Gardens.
FUCK LARH I KNOW YOU RICH LUH.
I can only afford those 2 for 20 tops at Cotton On and have to think twice to get a top that costs more than 20 bucks.
And I know your parents are so nice and will sponsor ALL of your whatever overseas trip.
SORRY ARH. I NOT SO RICH HOR.
CAN DUN NEED SPEND MONEY LIKE THAT DE RIGHT?
Then when I say, you complain.
Third.
I know you all got BF then very loving larh.
Your BF this, your BF that...
I GET IT ALREADY.
DON'T NEED RUB SALT INTO WOUNDS HORH?
Other people say friends are people who will be with you for the rest of your lives.
PUI ARH.
The only friends I have are those who will go to my funeral, eat the free food at the reception and then forget that I even existed three DAYS later.
When all is lost, will you even realize? My once (barely) noticeable existence now disappears from your hearts. And I shall forever be alone. I chose to trust you, open up to you. And this is what I get? Too bad karma doesn't like me much. What I give is not what I get... All is but grey.. In the world I created to make myself feel wanted.
Sometimes I just really want a normal Sunday, where everyone goes out together as a family in the afternoon, and ends with dinner at a decent restaurant or fast food joint.
But I guess its just wishful thinking on my part.
It's never possible for me.
Even like today, I actually wanted to go down to IMM and take a look at a pair of boots (that I could use for AFA)
But then it all went up in smoke.
Dad's in a bad mood and Mum's busy with the housework.
Not a Sunday goes by without everyone being in a bad mood.
Looks like I'll have to find an alternative to the VK look I was SOOOOO looking forward to doing when I go back to HYSS to visit the teachers.
Here I am blogging at home while most of the W45L people are prolly still at East Coast Park drinking.
Yeaps, drinking.
Cuz that's just the way they are.
I chose not to go. Even though I did not have anything on.
Those who read this will most prolly get angry.
I forsaked a night out with them to stay at home and play Maple.
No, its not because I am obsessed with Maple.
Its just that...
I have ALOT of things on my mind now and I need to straighten out my thoughts before I go mad.
I'm sick. Running nose, itchy throat. Unless you guys want me to DIE for UT3, then by all means call for another BBQ before UT3
I have other commitments other than W45L. I know that they have their own commitments too, but mine are totally different from what you guys think it is. (NO ITS NOT A BOYFRIEND. I'M SINGLE)
Well. I guess that's all for today..
I'm sick. I needa rest.
また風邪引いちゃったかい? めんどくさいぞ... 風邪なんか大嫌い...
If I were to die tomorrow...
I wonder how many people will come to me and tell me (truthfully) that I have left an impact on their lives?...
I wonder how many people will even remember that I no longer exist...
I wonder...
Dammit. I'm in a FUCKING bad mood. GO AWAY.
Shou is SUPER CUTE in this pic XDDDDDDDDDDDDD <3 <3
I'm not going for the class BBQ today... And so now I'm here thinking if its the right choice. Its not that I don't like the class or anything... I love them in fact.. Its just that... Sometimes, I just can't help but feel that I was never one of them. Well, what can I do about it? Its not something I wanted in the first place.. Anyway I'm sick already. I wanna recover in time for the exams..
Oh well. Shall post again tonight if I remember, and if I don't get obsessed with Maplestory XDDD
Last night was my last night of duty at YOG. Although I was complaining at the start, I kinda feel that it was all worth it.
Three matches were on yesterday.. Singapore vs Chile Belgium vs Ghana Australia vs Pakistan
Match #1: Singapore vs Chile. (5th and 6th placing) They've met each other on the field once, SG lost by a point and they were all crying.. Yesterday, they thrashed Chile 6-1 XDDDD GOOD JOB SINGAPORE! <3 <3 <3 You're in 5th place! WOOOOOOOOOOOOO! Love you guys XD
Match #2: Belgium vs Ghana (Bronze medal match) Another repeated match-up for these two countries. Belgium proved to be the better team and won Ghana XD Go go Belgium!
Match #3: Australia vs Pakistan (Gold medal match) Once again, another repeated match-up. Pakistan was taking the lead at first, but Australia won with a penalty stroke in the last 10 minutes of the game and won the gold medal. Pakistan players were so downcast after losing. We cheered for them cuz they put up a really really good fight. So good such that I was worried that Australia would lose. GOOD JOB TO THE BOTH OF THEM!
Then came the pic spam/stalk time XDDD <3 <3 We stood at the staircase near the grandstand and just spammed pics with whoeverwas coming down XD Chile, Ireland, Nederlands, Belgium, Ghana, Australia bla bla bla I HAVE EVERYONE IN MY CAAAAAM.. XD
We waited for after the medal presentation before we went to find Australia and Belgium for more pic spams XD When Australia came down, they were so happy! Ans since we were near and had camera's on standby, they were like 'Hey gorgeous, lets take a picture!' (thats player no.8 btw - one of my faves) OMIGOSH OMIGOSH OMIGOSH. Player no.8 winked at me and called me gorgeous XDDD *nosebleeds* wheeeeeeeeeeeee! And I can hash his autograph on my shirt. I'M SO NOT GONNA WASH IT! Oh ya. He already accepted my friend request on facebook XD
And then there was this super cute belgium player tooooo! The belgium player is like HAAAAAWWWT only XDDD *melts* And i also can hash his autograph on my baaaaaaaaaaaaaag XDDDDDDDD
I should have asked Australia for the hockey stick DDDDDDX
Yes. I am rotting away at hooooome.. =3= Tmr there's YOG duty... Nooooooooooooo... Can I dun goooooo? *winks winks* Argh. Guessed not.
I wanna go Natsu Matsuri... D: I wanna go Natsu Matsuri... D:
Damm.. Aussie hotties are NOT worth my Natsu Matsuri day DDDDDX
Rotting away at home. I'm soooooo gonna flunk UT3 D:
Sometimes... Its not like I want to hurt you... Its just that I don't understand... Why can't you accept me for being myself... Is is wrong to be myself?
I'm here alone... Hoping... Hoping for the impossible...
It hurts... It hurts to know... That you're so near yet so far. In my hands yet out of my heart...
This is gonna be one hell of a long post. But I think it’s worth my time.
Dedicated to W45L, the best class that I have had since I started schooling 11 years ago.
This might be draggy, but I hope the W45L peeps who are reading this will stay on to the end.
14 April 2010.
First day of lessons in a TOTALLY new environment.
Truth be told, I was afraid.
I had a lot of “what ifs” in my mind.
What if I don’t like my new classmates?
What if I don’t fit in like some of the previous classes I had in primary and secondary school?
What if I don’t make any friends?
Seriously.
I fucking swear I was daaaam scared on my first day of school.
At 8am. I reached the door of classroom W45L.
I decided to keep the “what ifs” out of my mind for awhile.
When lessons began...
It was standard procedure I guess.
Ice breaking games, trying to get us to warm up to each other. It wasn’t that bad though.
And now, after 15 weeks of being together… …
I AM OFFICIALLY SAD TO LEAVE ALL OF YOU.
I'll admit that I’m not exactly normal, but I don’t think I’m THAT weird either.
I was really afraid that no one would accept me for the JROCK, blood/gore, violence loving girl that I am.
Because you can’t really say that it’s normal for girls to like bloody or violent stuff.
But I guess in one way or another, I felt that I was accepted as a part of the class.
Frankly speaking, I think I was born an anti-social.
I only open up to the people that I feel I can really trust to take my secrets to their graves with them. I’ve experienced having my own secrets being used against me, and I guess that was what makes me the way I am. I believe that if I’m going to get hurt by opening up to others, then I’d rather be alone forever.
But humans are social creatures and I guess I really couldn’t help but open up to all of you.
THANK YOU FOR THE MEMORIES.
I tend to judge people VERY quickly, and me, being me, I am usually very stubborn. Once I take a firm stand in something, its hard for me to change.
But I guess this class is different.
From then all the way till now, my impression of all of you have changed.
FOR THE BETTER.
But still, I thank all of you for being my friends.
Thank you for being there for me.
I don’t have a religion. But to whoever is watching over me from wherever, Heaven or Hell, THANK YOU.
THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME HAVE THE CHANCE TO MEET SUCH GREAT PEOPLE.
Seriously. You don’t know how grateful I am for having such a lovely class.
HOLY SHIT. I think I’ll stop here. Before I cry again. T.T
BUT YOU GUYS ARE REALLY MAKE MY DAY.
AWESOOOOOOOME!
LOVE YOU ALL~!
*muaaaaacks*
Here are some songs for all of you.
Its in Japanese (cuz its me XDDD)
The lyrics are really meaningful.
Hope you guys can take some time to listen to it.
There are 4 so I got those with English subs for you guys (the 1st 3) The last one no subbed de so.. Lyrics will be given XDDDD
THANK YOU - Home Made Kazoku
Michi (Road) ~ To You All - Aluto
Friends - Stephanie
Yume no Michishirube - ViViD
Yume no Michishirube - ViViD
subete no kimi wo
ukeireru kara sa mou nani mo osore nai de mienai asu ni
senaka no tsubasa ga oretemo boku ga kimi wo michibiku kara
daijoubu, daijoubu
tsunaida te wa mou nidoto hanasanai itsuwari dake
kuro shika nai kono sekai de boku ga kimi wo terashite ageru
daijoubu, daijoubu
nagashita namida no bun dake egao ni naru
koko ni ikiru imi wo yatte mitsuketa garasu iro no ude de zutto mamotte ageru
kake gae no nai
taisetsu na kimi e zutto soba ni warattete hoshii
itsumo
sou itsumade mo kimi ga nozomu no nara
uta wo utaou
koko ni ikiru imi wo yatte mitsuketa garasu iro no ude de zutto mamotte ageru
subete no kimi wo ukeireru kara sa mou nani mo osore nai de
kanji aete kono kiseki nani yori kimi ni deaeta koto ni arigatou
tokei no hairi susumu tabi kimi e no omoi fukuranda iku atatakai
sayonara
nante iwanai yo kimi no dake no kodokuboku ga
terashi tsuzukeru
Because everything about you has been accepted
There's nothing more to be scared of The tomorrow that cannot be seen
Even if the wings on your back are broken
Because I will show you the way
「Are you okay? I’m all right…」
The hands that are connected will not be separated a second time
In this world which is full of lies and has no choice but to be black I will shine upon you
「Are you okay? I’m all right…」 only the segment of tears that flowed have became smiles
I have finally found the meaning of living in this world I will always protect you with this glass-coloured arm
To the precious you who cannot be replaced… 「I want to forever be laughing by your side」
Always yes, no matter what If you wish for it I will sing a song
I have finally found the meaning of living here (in this world) I will always protect you with this glass-coloured arm
Because everything about you has been accepted there’s nothing more to be scared of This miracle of falling in love with each other Above all, for the fact that I met you 「Thank you.」
Every time the needle of the clock goes forward my feelings for you grow… It’s warm
I will not say things like「goodbye.」 I will continue to shine upon the loneliness in the heart of you
-dawn- 緑川千秋
call me whatever you want.
I'm a nice person.
Just a little weird.
Cuz' I'm a girl.
But I like violence.
Blood and gore is not a problem for me.
I live for 10 things -
[JROCK]
[VISUALKEI]
[JAPANESESTUFF]
[ANIME]
[MUSIC]
[FAMILY]
[FRIENDS]
[LOVE]
[MONEY]
[HAPPINESS]
