conclusions.

Wheeee ~ Going to make my Gazerock tee tomorrow ~ Or at least get the teeshirt first d(^_^)b 


Gonna meet Rachel at City Hall and head to Peninsular Plaza to get the tee ~  
Hopefully I can get the tee printed tooo ~ 


Well. This post is to "friends" that were once friends.


I admit. I am good at hiding emotions. 
Laughing when I'm crying inside. 
Faking ignorance when I am seriously affected inside.

I'll say. I'm easily affected. That's my bad point.
I know you did ask. 
But then, think about it.
I answered, and waited for a reply. 
I was busy, so I didn't ask. 
I know this sounds like an excuse. 
But whatever. 
I will never swallow my pride for things like this. 
Its not the first time. 

Only time will tell how people are like. 
So now I've seen it all. 

I've been on the giving end. 
And I've also been on the receiving end. 
So there you have it. 


I've had friends like this all the time. 
And I know well enough that I don't have to change for you. 
I have always been like that.  Since FOREVER.
Don't like it?  FUCK OFF. 
Who told you to get affected by such stuff? 


Please. Why did I even try to please you guys? 

Talking to/thinking about people like this will only make me look OLD and drop my hair. 
*goes off to curse people*

Gazerock oh yeaahhhh :DDDDDDD

Reitaaa ~ <3 <3 <3  SPREAD THE G.A.Z.E.L.O.V.E 
:DDDD

updaaaaates.

Okay fine. 
No one really reads this blog. 
But since I made it for my own entertainment, I shall update it for my own shiok-ness. 


Nothing much happened really. 


Monday - 


Hospitality and Tourism Module. Damm. I seriously cannot stand the faci's accent. Some weird China/Hong Kong accent. And damm naggy some more. I dun liek. But overall I guess she was still okay?? At least she didn't drag the lesson too long. We were off at like, 3.35 3.40 like that??
The went to Causeway Point to walk around and get the $2 Cotton On bag for Christina. Hahaha. Then Ren sms-ed me. Double confirm with me if I want to go Dhoby Ghaut with him to Daiso to find something. Since I had nothing to do, so went with him lorh. 
All the way from Woodlands to Dhoby Ghaut he refused to tell me what he wanted to buy LOL. Until we reached Daiso then he finally told me, on the condition... that I wouldn't laugh. LOL. Funny sia he. Hahahahaha. 
Went all the way to Dhoby Ghaut for a ... ... ... ... I shan't say :DDDDD
Then after that we took a train to Raffles Place and then change to green line. Ren alighted at Tanjong Pagar cuz' he had work there. Then I took all the way back LOL. 
LOL. Reached home at approximately 6.30 ?? Then started doing RJ and stuff. Then chat with Ren. Help him figure out what Ruki was trying to say in one of their lives before Cassis. But I really couldn't hear what Ruki actually said. I gave him some alternatives LOL. Stayed up till 12 plus to get it done cuz I seriously cannot stand not completing something that I can easily do before I sleep. 


Tuesday - 
Nothing much. Entrepreneurship again. Had to do a mindmap for presentation, so it was pretty much an easy job preparing it. So me, Kenny, Azhveena and Zura were doing outside the classroom and suddenly the faci from one of the classes opposite ours came to us and he was like : "Do you all have a thing for ice cream?" 
Epic stun LOL. He gave us 4 lime flavoured jelly Paddle Pops :DDDDD wheeeee ~ 
Then the usual, presentation (but I wasn't listening hahahaha)... 
Took 187 back with Cassandra dear, hahaha. Camwhored on the bus :DDD sho cute siaaa she :DDD 


Can't wait to get my Gazerock tee done up. Meeting Rachel to get the tee ~
Ren is like "faster go make! faster go make!" Hahahahaha. :DDDDD


Yes Ren. Soon soon. Hahahahahahahahahahaha. 


Lesson starting soooooon ~ じゃね～！


Today's look - inspired by Ruki :DDDDDD

School and work have been tiring me out. 
On weekdays its school all the way till 3.30 and on weekends, its work at JP straight after my Japanese lessons at Bugis. 
Still haven't recovered from my bout of flu. And I think I'm gaining weight too. Shit. 


Still thinking about some stuff. Stuff that has always been on my mind and will always be on my mind. 
I've been thinking LESSER, but still thinking. 
I even emo-ed on the bus like. Wednesday and Thursday LOL D:


What will be will be. But I just can't help but think of it.. 


Totally drained and dead beat. 
Eyebags are getting uglier and uglier. 
SHIT.
I gotta start sleeping earlier. 


Someday ... 
Maybe someday ... 
I''ll be able to be with you ... 
But until then ... 
It is all but wishful thinking ... 
I love you ...
But do you feel the same for me ? 
I guessed not ... 
Its okay ... 
I'll keep loving you ...
Till the day I die ... 

お願い。

すごく嫌な感じがしてる。。。
やっぱり、あなたはもう私の言葉を聞き飽きましたね？
いいの。
いいのよ。
構わないのよ。
でも、お願い。
私を嫌われないで。。。
嫌われないでください。。。

Sometimes, I really hate myself for thinking this way. 
I'm sick and tired of having these kind of thoughts. 
I know I'm just making myself miserable. 
But I just can't help it .
The moment my mind wanders off, these thoughts just come gushing into my mind. 
I really hate these thoughts. 
I know they are just dreams that will never come true. 
But I really can't help it. 


It hurts to have these thoughts. 
It hurts so bad. 
I just want all the pain to go away ... 

emotions, time, and letting go .

I knew it. 
I knew it was never possible. 


Its time to let go. 
Its time to part ways.


I knew I was never good enough for anyone. 

emo post.

すごく嫌な感じがしてる。。。

あなたはもう私の言葉を聞き飽きましたね？

それでもいいの。

お願い。私を嫌われないで。。。

I think I'm emo-ing again.

Am I irritating?